I miss you - or better yet, the "you" you used to be.

I found myself sitting around at home with that all familiar pang in
my heart.

I miss you.

You moved on. You got s
Tattoo. You got hickies and most of all you changed.

And that's what makes me miss you most of all.

I lived in denial for months about the person you had become.

I fell in love with you but I was so sure that you didn't love me back
so I never told you. I fell in love with the part of you that you had
Long buried away and instead replaced with a figure of bravado and
show. I remmeber the "you" who had a natural gift to make me laugh for
hours on end and who had no problem keeping me up til the wee hours
with conversation

The real pain from this relationship is having to say goodbye to that
person -the one who I had loved dearly and watched on painfully as he
was hidden behind your new personality and eventually killed off. I
hoped for so long that he would come back but as each conversation
with you became increasingly foreign and uncomfortable.. I knew it was
over. The person I loved was buried forver and i never had the chance
to live in love with him.

To this day you will never realize how much you have changed in my
eyes. I am still mourning his disappearance because of all the wasted
potential.. I will never forgot how my heart felt at its highest
moment and neither will I forget it at its lowest. All I can do is
say goodbye and perhaps we'll be okay again someday. I will always miss the
"you" you used to be. I have been grieving that loss for months. The
best I can do now is wish you luck as the new you ~