I tell a lie when I can’t say nothing else
It’s better to keep quiet in the end
I got lost for a lack of a better word
And it became my second nature to pretend
People need to be needed
And I needed to know you needed me
Cuz when love comes along, well I can’t say no
And if nothing goes wrong, then I can’t let go
It’s the kind of addiction
The sort of affliction
And I can’t find a cure
~ taking it day by day. one thing i noticed is that i still feel the same emptiness as i did then.. not more, not less.. the same.
but i know that it's okay to feel like this, i'm supposed to feel this way now. it wasn't right to feel like this before. and i guess that's one of the only comforting aspects of it all.
they say big hearts break easy, but i strongly believe in the healing powers of time and the resilience of the heart. proud to say that there isn't much regret or hard feelings, just that quiet sorrow that is pretty standard in all endings, when you're learning to cope with it all fading away.
i gave it my all, and for most of the time, i felt rewarded for it. near the end, i felt as though my heart was standing alone. i still tried to live as "in the moment" as i could and appreciated every happy second. there were many of those... but now it's time to look out for myself and my future.
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