how do you tell the difference between lack of passion and comfort?
how do you know if you've just settled versus gotten comfortable?
does no communication - no text, no call - mean he's not thinking of you?
am I not giving it a fair shot? Do i not see your progress?
Am i the one to blame or is this just a lost cause?
does the good outweigh the bad?
is the frustration justified by the happiness?
what if an honest effort on your part isn't even close to being enough for me?
you're afraid, but of what?
the pain of being lonely or the pain of losing me?
if it's the former, then you must go through it.
pain can be good. ironic as it sounds.
because the healing helps you close up chapters of your life.
maybe this chapter needs to be finished
don't lie and drag me through this.
you can make me happy
but you refuse to.
the greatest disappointment to date.
no longer can defend the pain of being with you
this time, this time for real
i'm looking out for myself.