today!

things that matter most must NEVER be at the mercy of things which matter least
- always getting these great quotes from Eng Comp 100W!

quick recap:

1. went to lab at 11:30am --> left at 8:00pm

i regret not having done more homework during downtime in lab but i just couldn't help myself. i found out about this Firefox extension called LEECHBLOCK and essentially you can tell your firefox how long you should be allowed to spend at a certain website... i.e. you can tell it to allow you to go on facebook for 15 minutes every 2 hours.. something like that. i want to give it a try but at the same time, i can see myself desperately trying to undo the settings!

all this downtime is also why i've posted so frequently. i dont even know who reads this, which is sort of weird, but whatever, i like to post random things!

8 hours pass by pretty quickly in lab, albeit there are certain stretches of time where i'm completely panic striken and confused.

2. gender health day is tomorrow!

Kara: it better not rain on our day!
kelly: well, it was supposed to rain today (Wednesday) but it didn't
Kara: hopefully mother nature is not saving up for a shitstorm on friday.

AHAHAHHA. oh well, we're under the protection of many many canopies.

3. tomorrow is also Felix's birthday!
- the PI of my lab. i seriously love my lab, everyone is so nice and chill - we always have birthday cake and parties for every big holiday you can think of = drinking at inappropriate hours of the day. sangria at noon, tequila shots at 4pm. you name it - i've suffered the consequences =P. went to CLASS lab once tipsy from RESEARCH lab and proceeded to break many breakable objects. anyway, all this fun is probably due to the fact that it's almost all women in there!

4.my summer is going to be interesting, to say the least. i'm going to be study for my MCATs and taking women's studies courses as well so i can mooch on that financial aid. (jk, i really do need it.) but my Session A class is called pornography and evolution! seriously i dont even feel weird or uncomfortable taking that class anymore. if wom std has done anything for me, it has made me a lot less conservative/shy about speaking about certain things.

5. i feel as if i've been having a streak of bad luck/unfortunate evects. i get bummed at times but i always end up realizing that all that sulking will be time wasted.

case in point,
- Britney Spears concert is the day BEFORE my phy sci midterm. i really was shocked when i looked up those dates on the calendar. we got these tickets back in fall quarter and of course, i'm shit out of luck! currently trying to switch to the Staples Center show in LA the Thursday before. praying that someone responds. I really really want to go and of course with ellen you know it would be a bomb ass time, but there are many things to consider besides fun - my grade in that class perhaps? i really wish it was one of my other cake classes but it HAD to be the one that i NEED an A in. FML, right? Britney will tour again - my grade? one time hit or miss. agh.

I genuinely believe that academics is my absolute priority right now, but at the same time, i often wonder how many things and how many times I am supposed to sacrifice before i start to regret. and when I do choose to sacrifice, what happens when there isnt really a fruitful return for my labors? HOWEVER, nothing sucks more than half-assing and then wondering ~




... other than that, i'm really content.

watch the fates bite me in the ass for saying this!