The City

ummm, can i say how much i love The City? i totally expected to hate it. i don't care if it's staged or whatever, Whitney is awesome. nice, fashionable, cute!

that olivia girl is a hottie, but she's got nothing to do but scowl like a bitch and obsessively mention Jay every 10 seconds. ickk.

and obvi, new york city emanates a much more different energy - a more chic, sophisticated, and subtle edge.

<3

speaking of new york city, my dad had to fly there last minute on new years eve. so he spent the first few hours of 2009 on a Boeing 747. must have been all confusing since he was crossing time zones..

anyway on a more serious note, the reason he had to go was because my grandma found out that she has stage 3 breast cancer, and she was scheduled to go through chemo asap, which was today. i called in a few times to check on her, and my dad says she is being really strong. i'm really worried about her because she's 80 years old; she doesn't have that much energy anymore and chemo is really going to drain her.

I always beat myself up for not seeing my grandma enough. it's really hard to bring myself to call her because after we hang up, i always feel so bummed. my grandpa passed away march 2007 SO unexpectedly, and it is still the most heartbreaking thing to have ever happened to me. the guilt & shock just made it that much harder to deal with, and i can honestly say i will never get over it completely. the last time i saw him was 3 months prior to his passing, and i always wish that i could have squeezed in an extra visit. i want to visit my grandma more often but with my schedule and the distance, it becomes so hard. i am looking forward to spring break.

~ i love my grandma.