Wednesday, December 31, 2008


2008 was full of bungee jump ups and downs.
there were several times when i felt so helpless and naive.
but even with the many let-downs and disappointments, i have also racked up countless meaningful memories and laughs.

knowing that there is a select handful of people who are genuinely big-hearted and trustworthy people make me look forward to 2009.

so here's to the ending of a very *interesting* year.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

So is it wrong that 80min before my final that I act like a total
loser and take a pic of the lib on my way past? The sky was hot pink
and purple too, but my camera couldn't capture it. It seriously looked
so serene. Ahh so beautiful. <3 UCLA even if I get mentally abused
every couple weeks and then completely raped every 10 weeks or so.
Rawr. Bye bye fall quarter! 'Twas interesting.. To say the least!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Pain

for those in mourning, those in heartbreak, those taking finals...

“Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn’t let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can’t outrun it and life always makes more.”

- Meredith Grey

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Hai, Hubble.



i have always been a Katie girl, figuratively and literally - with my crazy annoyingly unkempt hair - and although sometimes i envy the simple girl purely for the fact that she's more.. simple and thusly lives&thinks more simply, i realize how boring life would be if my mind was void of all its complexities, twists and turns.

and i have to say that i appreciate having good friends and a boyfriend who can sit with me, just as perplexed and curious as i am. seriously. i love my katie boys and girls.


Carrie: Your girl is lovely, Hubble.
Big: I don't get it.
Carrie: And you never did.


~ this entry written also to demonstrate and reiterate why i love SATC so much - not only for its wit but also for its relatability. <3

Friday, December 5, 2008

B. Spurrs



You know, i really love the song. i think it is SO Britney... but there are two things about the video that i have personal issues with:

1. When she has that short black bob with the eyeglasses and office garb.. she looks like my Biochem professor from last spring. Seriously, it's uncanny. so it freaks me out imagining Dr. Villa freaking up on... a womanizer.

2. ... which leads me to this - the guy playing the "womanizer"? the worst actor in the world. LOL at his terrified faces.

did anyone catch her documentary? I love her!! although i thought the angle of the documentary was quite annoying ~ "poor old Britbrit- she's so damn famous!!" i love her country ass accent though. it's cute. for some reason, i hate jessica simpson's.. well, i pretty much hate JS in totality.. except maybe her shoe line.

anyway, as i was browsing youtube, she performs Womanizer @ the Bambi awards.. and britbrit looks like she forgot how to dance in heels & lipsync in perfect synchonization like she used to. its not like i could ever come close to doing any of her choreography.. but compared to her old vids (which i used to be obsessed with) she looks so stiff. she's probably just rusty. homegirl DID have 2 babies!

let's hope she streamlines her performance by april b/c me&dani have plans to catch her in CONCERT!!!!


holy shiatsu. so excited.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

via Sartorialist



YSL Trib Twos + Zip Skirt + black tights + new york swagger

= ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

do you remember him?

Robert Frost.. such nostalgia.
reminds me of New York and Christmas.
ahhh, i miss my childhood. a lot.
& i'd forgotten how powerful& beautiful poetry could be.


Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening

Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village, though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there's some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

---------------

Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Healing

rage: when hatred isn't strong enough
sadness: when you'd rather die than eat or sleep
self hatred: when you're convinced it's all your fault
false hope: when you're convinced you'll get back together
resolve: when you're determined to move on
relapse: when you'd give anything to go back
real hope: when you rediscover yourself and your strengths
moving on: when you rediscover the world and its joy


sometimes there isn't a neat little stepbystep rubric to healing.. the same emotion could be revisited again and again... seriously, you could probably insert sadness everywhere except perhaps the last two lines.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Parisian baby


Steez starts at a young age...
yes ellen you are shit talker #1... evidenced by.. yes, our last three texts. HAHAHAHAHA. oh man. loves it.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Cleaning out my closet

All I have to say is eeeewwwww! Ugh hate organizing!! Note the huge
mass of black = haulage over the break.

p.s. my blankie is hot pink, not red!! boo crappy camera phone

Art of Shit-Talk

There are two ways to talk shit

1. There's the kind that gets a genuine laugh out of me because you know that individual is exaggerating and means no harm... you know, like playful prodding or bantering? kind of like SNL shit but in your day to day life.. if that makes sense. haha

2. Then there's the other kind that elicits a forced chuckle followed by an uncomfortable silence. The kind where despite the overlaying lighthearted delivery of whatever comment, you can still detect the harsh tone in their voice. And when confronted they'll try playing it off or justifying their comment.. if they're saying something bad about another friend to your face.. Imagine what they're saying about you behind your back.

~ Careful with the people you surround yourself with.

p.s. i think having a shared blog with your best friends (esp when you're off at different colleges) is the greatest shiat eva to K.I.T. & remain B.F.F.! of course, looking back and seeing all the dumb/bitchy/dramaqueen things you've said over the past couple years is a highlight as well :-P

Saturday, November 29, 2008

PostSecret

Hot damn Koi palace

Obvi gotta end my stay at home with a ginormous Chinese dinner with fam!! Yumm! Infamously delish coffee spareribs (another way to satisfy my addiction) getting attacked in pic above!

Friday, November 28, 2008

O. M. G. & Black Friday

AS:DLKak;lda;'.....asd;klasd;'kla;lofa........?!?!1 ! ! ! !





[img via bonjouradieu]


... the Burberry "Knight", all yours for roughly 1K.
(sorry dayna, i know you hate studs =P)


obvi, going dtown to shop on black friday even when i'm a brokeass bitch wasn't enough torture... i then go home to browse through websites for things that are completely and utterly unattainable. rawr!

funny how that frantic Black Friday mode is so contagious.. even at places like Forever and Sephora when the stuff isn't even on sale. i realized this when i finally sat down for some food with a budding headache and realized that i could have waited a few days and shopped in peace (and with lots of personal space) instead. oh well, got a few things that i've been wanting for a while and a few unexpecteds so hurrah!

also have people downtown gotten weirder?
cases in point:

strange person #1: a homeless person sitting by the powell starbucks with what i would call a pet pyramid... 2 rats lying atop a cat which was lying atop a dog...

edit: ellen sent me a pic



strange person #2: helen and ellen got to witness this one.. a woman outside of Ross licks the sidewalk and then on her way inside, frenches with the glass door.

strange people #3: protestor-biggots of sorts outside by the cable car turnaround, proclaiming the reasons why genocide is a great thing and accusing some dark-haired girl of being a witch. of course, he also mentions how us sinners are all going to burn in hell. mmmm, at least it'll be nice n' toasty. [speaking of temperatures, SF is freakin 50-ish degrees during midday. and i thought LA dropping to the mid 60s at night was freezing enough!]

anyway, my partners in crime.. srsly love these girls! (we look soo aZn)



(don't know what the fuck is goin' on with my arms here...)


now to tend to my annual post-Black Friday migraine...

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Words of Bill Gates

he's got these rules for life and last but not least..


Rule 11: Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.



wizzord!


(via SavvyDani... aka ellen)

Fuck you, AcuraTSX.

last night was insane...
i realize that i am not all growned up, and i'm still pretty much a big baby

i've concluded that my mom's car hates me. and i hate it back!!!

capping off the happy happy joy joy celebrations of my bday with getting a flat tire on the freeway in the wee hours of the night... was a fuckin reality check. also note that when i exited the freeway to examine the car, we were "about a block from the projects" - according to helen.. thanks bitch. ALSO note - we saw the same car eerily drive past us twice, and suzanne goes "my mom says those are the people who look for houses to rob" - dear god!

anyway, i am so THANKFUL that suzanne and helen were there with me to calm me down and that helen's poppa was so generous with his time @ 2 in the morning.

i love that i have parents who are so understanding and have somehow raised me to self-punish/self-guilt trip. they don't even have to exact any penalties on me because i do it to myself willingly. wow.

... GIVE THANKS!

hahaha well LOVE YALLS, EAT YOUR ASSES OFF TONIGHT! (and watch the Macy's parade.. or MTV...)

Monday, November 24, 2008

Growing Pains

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same - The Fray

i remember last year.. i was going through what i thought was the worst thing to ever happened to me at that point in my life. at the time, i couldnt see how any of it was "for the best" or that it was "for a reason"... and i remember feeling numb as i sat there replaying events over and over again in my mind.

but now i can assuredly say that that 'horrible' event turned out to be the healthiest and best best BEST thing that has ever happened to me.

obvi i can relate to that feeling.. when the heartbreak is still so fresh and poignant and you just feel soooo DAMN lost.. but i realized that anger and sorrow should be fleeting emotions; otherwise, they are incredibly draining and damaging. i realized that there was no reason to resist moving forward because going back was no longer an option. it is so natural, even essential, to be at this state.. but one should try to look forward.. in order to successfully transition from broken, abused girl to strong, independent woman.


in the end, i realized i wasn't grieving over a "lost love", i was tending a shattered ego. i kinda wished that i was crying over losing a wonderful boyfriend, but i wasn't. i was broken because i was embarrassed by how much i had let myself down. in the end, what he did wasn't just his fault but mine too - by being with someone so wrong for me and for letting someone convince me that i (this applies to every girl) was anything less than precious. to finally admit that to myself, it was liberating. when i finally paid attention to what was actually hurting, that's when the real healing started.

hurt, cry, scream in a pillow, talk (a little) shit, recount all the bad times, cherish the good times, but realize that they don't outweigh the abuse... release it ALL... and move on.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Tidbits

i bought my black oxfords today! :)



also... ty jonny, MC, ti, connie for Yamato. <3


also also janice i love you so much. you are amazingly strong, and i can't wait to see you. best wishes... seriously.



side note: as an elective for my WS minor, should i take Afro-Am M107 Cultural History of Rap?

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

*drool

i wanted to die (the good dying, not the bad dying.. not that dying is such a positive experience in the first place.. ok wow i'm rambling... parenthesized comments are supposed to be short) when i saw this.




What is up with me and studs?
oh, did i tell you guys that i bought some gold and silver pyramid studs??!

and yes. i just want to stud everything in sight. even my pillow. and my notebook. and my gloomy bear.


....jk, not that i haven't thought about it.. seriously, i wanted to give Gloomy a new pair of earrings =P

Oh, Panda Express

finally something a little more hopeful than "you do good thing in futuer" (yes, that typo was on purpose)



anyway, thought it was cute, and i'm wishing that for all my girls ;)

Sunday, November 9, 2008